3 posts tagged “thoughts”

• I can't wait to start walking at least 30mins a day with Kelley once she moves closer - practically down the street!
• I can't wait to hear back to see if I got the first cooking job I've interviewed for or even applied for since maybe August??
• I hope that even if the cooking job doesn't pan out, the other coffee shop job I nailed (and already HAVE, starts next week!) will pay enough to cover bills without anymore help.
  
• I'm also hoping that if it's enough money to cover bills on my own, that I'm able to take the bills down a few notches (and eliminate some completely) so that I can move in with Kelley in two to three months.
• I really hope that someday - someday - my sister will wake up and stop being such a moron. Sigh.
• I'd love to be able to afford new clothes right about now.. I think some new items in my wardrobe would boost my self image and make me feel pretty when I want to dress up.
• Speaking of self image, I'd really love the money to get my hair cut. :-| It's been since.. September? August?? Too long.
• Hopefully I manage to somehow put the amount I've spent from my tax return back into my savings account, and magically still afford going to Disneyland for my birthday in October. I haven't been since I was too young to remember it AND too young to go on any rides. :-( It was supposed to be a good birthday vacation for Lorean and I...
• Speaking of my smoocher-poop, I hope he gets a decent job sometime soon so his parents with shut the eff up. I mean, seriously - this is getting pretty friggin' old, pretty friggin' fast.
• I'd like to slim down to at least a size 6 again... but if I managed to fit into the size 4's at Express again, that would be phenomenally amazing. :-D Really.
• I have high hopes for losing weight and getting fit, for the first time in over a year; I don't feel down about it as much anymore, and I'm FINALLY positive things will change. It used to feel like I'd just be out of shape and overweight like so many others in my family... like it was useless to try to get back into the shape I was once in. Now I KNOW I can, and I'm just waiting for the weather to warm up a tad.
• Speaking of weather - WARM UP A TAD!! I'm sooooo over the snow! OVER IT!
• I'm very thankful Lorean and I are doing so well lately... but he needs some guy time right now. I hope he gets it, because he's being an ornery booger.
• Another thing I'm hopeful for: Moving the heck out of Reno by spring of 2010.
  
• I'm thankful that I have a job, even if it's just 2 days a week and it's only 9 hours. I hate how little it is and it doesn't make it any less troublesome that I can't pay my bills, and I really hate when people say "well at least you have a job!" because that's like saying "At least you're not a starving kid in some third world country!" Obviously things could be worse than any scenario, and saying things like that doesn't help me. BUT.... I am thankful to have it.
• I'm thankful for my parents; I don't agree with how they handle my sister and her situation(s), nor do I always get along with them or even respect their choices... but God, they help me SO much, and it's amazing that I'm not in this financial crapper alone.

I think that's enough good vibes for tonight. I'm exhausted and I'm gonna head to bead. There's a gorgeous little black cat that is waiting for me, purring behind my computer chair. Which reminds me...

• I'm thankful for my awesome pets and my love for animals. People who mistreat animals or even yell at them unnecessarily DISGUST me nearly to the point of tears.
• I hope that I can somehow find money to spend on school, because I'd like to get into the veterinary field.. :-)
  

I miss very few things about Phoenix, and mostly it's just the freedom, the fact that I made DECENT money, and that I was away from all of the drama and problems here at home. I was just with him. It was nice.

But what do I really miss? This week, and actually whenever it comes to mind, I miss pizza! We had THREE GREAT PIZZA PLACES that we loved to visit near our apartment. Sardella's, Uncle Sam's, and Grimmaldi's. All of them had pizza and wings. Grim's had the best pizza, hands down; Sardella's had the best value the the different foods for one price; and Uncle Sam's was the best place to eat wings and pizza with friends, because it had tons of sports TV's and a fun environment.

I really... really miss good pizza.

I'm in need of a vacation. Seriously. I don't care if it's just a miniature road trip for the weekend, but I really, really need one. I want to get out of here and go somewhere else, experience some culture or something new. When I lived in Reno, if I ever got sick of my surroundings I'd drive down to San Francisco.. or Lake Tahoe.. or Pyramid Lake.. or Vacaville for shopping. Something - ANYTHING - away from the norm.

Here in Phoenix, I have no money to do these things. I miss having money saved up; and even with money saved up, I still had an abundance of funds to splurge on friends, food, outings, clothes. I felt happier with myself because I had less stress, and I think stress is one major thing that keeps this weight on my body (along with depression, but that's a sob-story that's been told before, so I try to keep it to myself).

I'm not going to lie - I'm happier with more money. Not just the fact that I've got a ton of money to throw at random things, but it's financial stability that I miss. I don't have that in my life right now. If I lost my job, I'd be S.O.L.

On the happier side of things, Lorean started a new job today. He's making at least $4 more than he was at the dealership, which pisses me off. Not that he's making more, but that his prior job didn't PAY him more. He was working so much harder than he will be now, and yet made crap for it... I hate the way jobs work like that. Anyway, he'll be making a considerable amount more, get paid weekly, and hopefully this will help us out.

I'm going to stop spending money on everything. No more dinner out, no more lunch out at work, no more stopping to get coffee in the mornings unless it's once every other week. Any extra money at the end of the month goes 1/3 into savings, the rest is thrown at my Visa card. The 4 months that Lorean couldn't afford to give me $100 for my card like he's supposed to - since it's OUR debt - has really set back the process of paying it off. Me putting $100 a month is only $30 over the minimum, so when the interest rolls around and gets charged to my card, it's like I only paid $30 or $20. It stinks.

Anyway. I miss San Francisco... part of me wonders if I miss it enough to move back. I have people that I knew from high school actually living there now; I wonder if I'd have friends this time around instead of just people that would stab me in the back....

Just some images from San Francisco.. I miss having the inspiration to take tons of pictures. In SF, I had inspiration to walk around almost DAILY and take pictures of anything and everything. I was a resident tourist, it seemed; I lived there, but I took more pictures than a group of a tour trolly, I swear. It was fun. Hundreds of pictures to choose from and edit, and I loved it.